tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-418762106686332827.post9220703853737281296..comments2015-02-25T04:55:37.686-08:00Comments on Captivating: Lesson 4-Chapter 6 Healing the WoundEternally Gratefulhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06559236003835112870noreply@blogger.comBlogger1125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-418762106686332827.post-71032932023338257412010-10-07T05:58:39.213-07:002010-10-07T05:58:39.213-07:00And what if I have no one to blame or to forgive f...And what if I have no one to blame or to forgive for my shortcomings? I had a "normal" childhood. Mom and Dad paid attention to me, siblings were normal and we all got along. No traumatic happenings........and yet, as an adult, I still have some issues to deal with. Not with self-esteem (I tend to have had a high dose of that given to me, which baffles my sister, because she has none. I might have gotten her share...), but with the everyday things I just can't seem to let go of. We talked about being overbearing and a need to be in control a few weeks ago. That is so me.....I take it all on. I know I can do it how I want it done, and might as well do it first before someone screws it up and I have to fix it anyway.<br />Why do I feel like I am going to be a bad mom and screw my daughter up for life? I didn't have bad examples set for me. My parents did the best with what they had and I am a better person for having grown up in their house.<br />I will swear I have a touch of OCD....drives my husband nuts and it makes me fear that I will pass this on to my child. Is it okay to show your children your flaws? Or am I destined to make her life horrible because I am not a perfect person. <br />I refused for 4 years to have another child after my first was born because I was afraid I couldn't love a second one as much as my first. Or that my first would feel slighted by another child. Now that I'm going to have another one, the fear is back. Will the same love and bond be there? Will I have enough love and time for two? <br />These are the fears I have and the things I bring to the Lord in prayer. I'm not sure this is what the book is talking about, but these are my shortcomings and the fears of my woman's heart. How do you ask for forgiveness for things of this nature? When its no ones fault....When I haven't been wronged, but am just imperfect and humanMandy Brandhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16601979482522692902noreply@blogger.com